Recaps of my birthday weekend

On Friday, my brother and I went to Manhattan to check out this camera store called B&H. It was my brother's idea taking me there. He thought it was a good idea since I have been planning to buy a new camera and still having trouble deciding which camera is right for me. This way, I can get a sense which one I want to buy when I'm ready. Yes, my brother is a geek so this type of thing is up in his alley and no he will not be buying me a camera because he had brought me there. I wish but, that's not going to happen. Anyway, the thought is what counts and I like hanging out with my brother. He always will be mine big brother, the one that I look up to and nothing will change that (except for the second part). =)

After we spend like two hours in B&H I have finally found "the camera" that I want to buy. It's affordable and metes all of my basic needs (Anyway I choose to buy that camera model later on online). Of course there always some better camera out there but, I don't have that kind of money to burn as of right now. Maybe, one day in the future. For those who don't regularly shop at B&H they open from 9 - 2pm on Friday and close the whole day on Saturday. But, they open from 9 - 7pm on week days and open on Sunday. Go figure, Jewish stores run on a totally different time schedule compare to most of us.

When 2 O'clock comes around and the store close we walk around time square and then have lunch. That's pretty sum up what I did on Friday. Here is some pictures.

At the middle of Time square. I like this picture just because of all the yellow taxi were stuck in traffic. LOL People are better off walking then taking the taxi. Here in New York, New York walking and subway is the fastest transportation there is.

Does anyone know which side the ball drop on New Year Eve? In this picture shows one of them and there is another one across on the opposite side. I know this sound stupid coming from someone who spends her whole life living in New York but, I never paid attention to these kinds of details.

During the time I was in the smack in the middle of Time square Broadway there so happen to be a men broadcasting some horse race update live. The closest thing next to being in the presence of actual live news. I wish I can be the NBC news where they record live on Rocket Fellow Center. Unfortunately, I didn't wake early enough to catch that.

Here is us having lunch at Time Square. This restaurant theme is so funny. They took the idea from Forest Gump. I enjoy while I was there but the service was so-so. The waitress keep rushing us through the whole meal.

My brother and I at Bubba Gump restaurant. I hate taking picture from this angle it makes my head looks huge but, I have no choice. No one was there to help me to take the picture.



This is a example of what I was talking about. The theme of this restaurant taken from the movie Forrest Gump. You put up the sign RUN FORREST RUN when you don't need their service.


And when you want service from the waitress you turn over to the other sign STOP FORREST STOP. Way too hilarious and tempting flipping them back and forth just for the fun it but, I didn't.



We have the shrimp heaven. Contain four categories of shrimp prepared differently with three different choice of sauce. Compliment with coled slaw and French fries.



And we have Salmon burger. Very good but, a bit sloppy to eat.
I'm sorry, if I have made you hungry. At least you didn't consume all of those greasy food. Believe me, I felt bad right after I finish the meal.



After we have lunch we walk around aimlessly and some how ended up at the M&M World.

Tempting ha?

You know you want to go in.









Do I have to say anything more! It's so cute, I have to take a picture. How often do you see a blue M&M doing the disco.










She is so beautiful. Ms. Green M&M as statue of liberty. I wish N.Y. still have the Statue of Liberty symbol as N.Y.'s licence plate. In my heart its still is.









All the M&M that you can think of! They are all here baby! Whatever kind you want, just name it, they are probably located in this store.







Me at Rocket Fellow Center. They always don't have the Christmas tree up when I come and visit.
=(





On Saturday, I spend the whole day working on the bathroom tile. On the positive note my mom cook something special for dinner. Mostly, because she want to celebrate that night but, we were too busy going back working on the bathroom after dinner.

Family dinner

Love it! Better than eating in a loud crowd restaurant.






On Sunday, it's actually the day of my birthday. So, we sing happy birthday and ate some slice of cake. This year is Strawberry moose cake. Yeah, it didn't taste so well. I like the chocolate moose cake better that I have chosen for mom's previous birthday. After eating the cake I went back to work some more on the bathroom's tile.


********************Happy Birthday!*************

Why I choose the name lovsucks?

During the time when I came up with this name “lovsucks” I had just gotten my heart broken after I found out this guy that I liked in school have a girlfriend. I was upset and puzzled of the whole situation. He was the one who expressed he had some interests in me more than just friends, was nervous around me, and had made excuse to see me. My life was fine before he came in the picture. I was focus on school work, no distraction from guys, and wasn’t a mess thinking about him all of the time. I am so mad at myself for being a fool. Why am I so stupid? Clearly, he was a player and he had no intention for our relationship to go any farther. Just made me think he really likes me then out of the blue ignore me at all cost. It hurts. Love really sucks. That’s where the name came from. The first thing that pop’s into my head when I was choosing a name for this blog. Well, I wanted love sucks but someone already had taken that one.

My Mom's birthday!

I know, I just have posted birthday blog not too long ago. Bare with me this one is the last one for a pretty long time. I love being there and celebrating the birthdays of those who are the closest to me. I really do but, it cost a lot. Not just only to my piggy bank but, also towards my health. For example, this year my mom and granny decided to throw both of their birthday party back to back in the same weekend. Sounds fun huh? Well, not for the person who is the daughter and granddaughter of the birthday girls. I have to drive 3-4 hrs from Long Island through NYC to New Jersey and back. Repeat this two times back to back. Oh yea, while I'm in New York city I have to pick up the cakes. Sound like a simple task. But, my brother can't find a single parking spot in the NYC of course so, I have to rush in get the cake and leave. Meanwhile my brother circle around the blocks a few times until I called him to get me. Did not like that idea in the first place because I know there would be a long line and he will keep calling me on the cell to hurry up. However, the major problem doesn't lies there. It was one of the ladies who work in the Chinese bakery shops giving me a hard time. I waited on line until it was my turn, politely told her I was there to pick up the cakes that I had order yesterday. And asked her to give me specific so and so amount of candles in certain size (because the thicker ones rep. 10 years and the slimmer one rep. one year Oh yea, for those of you who don't buy cakes in the city from Chinese bakery shops they cover the candle cost but you have to remember to ask). Out of no where she gives me an attitude like I had given her too much work. Then, she randomly grab a bunch of candles mix with big and small ones into the bag. Instead of listen to my request she in purposely mess with me. I took a look at the what she have given me and repeated the same request hoping she will cooperate. But, no she said "who care I don't so, take it leave". I got so fed up with her rude attitude I took out the candles from the bag counted them out loud one by one. Given her back all the small one and demand how many big ones are still missing. Didn't yell but, she can tell I was serious and fed up with her attitude. She can raise her voice all she wants but, I was not leaving until I got what I had pay for. Usually I'm really nice but, some people really knows how to push my button.

This a picture of my family plus everyone else in my mom side of the family. Sorry, that it's missing the left side of the photo. My uncle the one in strip shirt insist to help everyone set up the automatic flash button on the camera. I guess when he put it down he did not check the view where it was pointing. Maybe, my cousin have a better picture and I can ask them for a copy.
By the way, I'm the one in the red shirt sitting next to the birthday girl. :)

My mom cutting the cake. I know, this picture looks some what weird because she suppose to blow the candle first then cut the cake. But, my mom wants to take a picture with her cutting the cake while the candles was still there. Don't worry, after we had taken this shot she had blow the candles then cut up the whole cake.
Oh, yeah I had pick the chocolate mouse cake. It's the one on the left. Everyone loved it including the dog. Personally, I would not feed my dog human food but my Granny spoil them.

Next week on the actual day of my mom's birthday we took her out to dinner with just our little family. But, before we went out I surprise her with a birthday song that I had played on the guitar. She loved it and both of my parent were surprised I can even played that well. The birthday song was the first song I had learned on the guitar. After figuring out each note one by one where it go on the fretboard how to position my my right hand and memorize it all with the right tempo...I think it's all worth it. Able to give her that smile and joy on her face is priceless.

Granny's Birthday Party

My Granny have turned 80 this year. I was happy for her because reaching 80 is like reaching a mile stone. Because of that we throw her a big birthday party.

Here's a great photo of my Granny and her daughters. What do you know, my mom looks like the skinniest of them all! And she thought she was fat.


I rarely get a picture taken alone with just Granny and my family. So, this is one of my favorite picture we have taken together. Like you don't know already, I'm the one in the black shirt.

The whole gang sitting around the table getting ready to sing Granny's happy birthday and cut the cakes.

This is my brother's Fiancé. Usually, the topic dieting comes up when I'm near her. -sigh- After the hundred time I think I got the hint. hehe It's on a working progress. In the mean time, please be patient with me and less judgmental about my body. I can only take so much criticism plus I got the curve gene from my mom side. Just look at my ants and cousin. I think she meant well but, sometime she makes me feel uncomfortable with my body like I was extremely overweight which I'm not.

Chinese New Year 2007

Celebrating Chinese New Year with some of my relatives from my mom's side over dinner. These are snap shoots and none of them are taken by me.


Having dinner. I'm the one in the middle with the white shirt.


The rest of the gang and my grandma on the right. Smile people. Even a little bit. Tough crowd.


Me and my cousin, Julie. I looks so old and out dated standing next to her. She 15 turning 16 soon and have a very cool wardrobe.


In this picture, I just love the expression on my brother's face. lol And that's my other cousin standing next to him.


The rest of my cousin. Well, there is one more cousin but he's at Yale. He's actually the better looking one compare to my other cousins if you ask me.

Once again I have fail

...to heal from my wounds.
...to let go of my past.
...to have a closer relationship with my brother.
...to live up to my parent's expectations.
...to accomplish my future goals and dreams.
...to make it in the real world.
...to face my fears.
...to believe in myself.
...learn when not to trust others.
...to stay away from all heart breakers.
...to know what's my purpose in life.
....to stop mourning over someone close to me who had passed away.
...to find that feeling "everything will be ok"
....to let God into my life.
...to find love and true happiness.
...being a good friend b/c I was too caught up in the problems above.

The month of giving

I don't know what's with this time of the year. I get this urge wanting to help others and be loved by the people around me. Well, I did my part. Helped around the house, visit both of my grandmas, and helped strangers that need an extra hand to carry things. I would do more like donate something to the cancer society for children but I lost their flier that they send me earlier. And when I say "donate something" I meant my long hair that I have cut off couple months ago. Those poor kids have to shave their head and needed a wig.

My family on the other hand isn't much into the sprite of the holiday. I don't know why. All I wanted is for them to be happy as a family during Christmas. But, all they wanted is to do their own separate thing and argues who's plans is more important. You tell me how could I be happy when they act like this. It really hurts me.

Out sick with a flu

I remember when I was a little girl getting sick was sort of fun because I got the special treatment from my parents. They work long hours and I don't get to see them much during the week days so, when they give me extra attention, love, and nurturing I felt very bliss. Now, that's not the case. Since I was in my early teens there was no time to be sick. In fact I thought 24 hours in a day was not enough for me. Never had taken a day off for being sick and when I do get sick I did not let that stop me from continuing doing my work. Well, maybe it have slow me down a little bite and made me cranky. :P In return, my parents tried to put me into bed when I'm sick. lol As a stubborn workcoholic I was, I refuse and pretend everything was ok and I was getting better. Who was I fooling? Myself?

I must be getting old becuse I usually don't get sick very often. Now, I can't fool anybody. My body gave in. Maybe around the time when I feel like my head wants to explode and my nose is drooping like a running faucet. Ok, I'm starting to feel dizzy I think I go to bed early tonight. Night, night!

It's my birthday

Here are some pictures that I had taken in Manhattan yesterday with my brother. Well, I have taken total of 126 pictures so, these are just ONLY a few of them.


This is the Empire State Building. I have taken a few shot of this building from a different angles and distances as I was walking towards it. I know I sound like something what a typical tourist would do. But, who cares if it was up to me I have a camera on me every where I go so I would be able to capture the moment of what I consider to be precious or beautiful or just reflecting what's going in my life like a personal diary.
This is one of my favor picture of the Empire State Building. It has this unique angle where the viewer's eyes can't help it but to look from the bottom of the building to the top getting that feeling how tall and massive this building really is. And the clear blue sky with a small touch of cloud in the back ground doesn't hurts either. It was a beautiful day. =)


TrumpTower. He have so much money to waste there are trees planted OUTSIDE in the MIDDLE of his building. But, I do have to give him the credit, it does looks nice.

"Hehe. Your Fire!" I can't help not to say it while I had pass by this building. At that moment it seems funny to me but, I slowly realize people who were walking next to me where giving me that weird stare. Then, it was not funny anymore.

I think everyone have their own distinct look but, to pull off a very weird look that nobody thinks its complementary then that person must be either very confident or rich, like Donnal Trump. I can't blame that he have Daffy Duck lips since he was born with that feature but, what's with his hair. Even a guess speaker who's a professional dream interperter said if you see Donnal Trump in your dream then he might be a symbolism for a girl since "he could be easily mistaken for a female" with that hair. =P


Time Square. Out of the other pictures that I took in Time Square I like this one the best. Maybe it's because of the color and how the flags were position. Usually the big christmas tree in the middle of Time Square appeal to me the most but, they did not have it set up yet in this time of the year. =(


Central Park. This is where my feet hurt the most. I think I did enough walking for a whole week within that one day.


Yeaks! The horror! I'm sorry if I have scare you
with my close ups. =P This is the only picture
that we have taken together on this trip. My brother is a bite camera shy when it comes to taken picture with his little sis (You know how older sibling thinks their lil sis or bro is never cool enough to be hang out in public at least that was the case when I was lil) so, I treasure this picture even if my head looks like the size of a hot air balloon.


humm... since you could not see Grand Central in the backgruond in the previous picture too well here is another picture of the same place.

Metropolitan Art Museum. Too much to see but, still love their art works.

As tradition in my family we end our birthday with a cake at home. Tried something different this year... cheese cake. Despite how great it taste I think I stick to the regular ice cream cake. Just did not feel right. I hope one day when I start my own family I make some of my own traditions like what I did with my family.

Visiting a old friend of mine (10/21/06)

Not seeing her after all these years I did not know what to expect. But, when I saw her I felt very comfortable telling her everything like we are close buds. We went around places in Queens, China town, and East Manhattan. Other than walking around most of the time we talk and talk. We talk so much I don't think there was much left to say. Hehe. I could be very talkative sometime. So, I come to conclude that this friendship reunioun was a success.


This is a picture of me and my friend, Michelle in a India resturant


Me on the Phone. Sorry Michelle! Where's my manner, I'll be right there.


Me waiting for the subway. I wish we have taken more pictures of us together instead of just me or her. Too bad there isn't much people around us who want to help us take picture or can use a camera properly.

Stuck between phases

I'm so frustrated with myself! It seems like everyone except for me is moving on with their lives and reaching closer to their dreams. No one understand being suck between phase better than me : (

Hiking in Bear Mountain (8/19/06)

Here are some of the pictures from the hike. Enjoy!

The lake near the bottom of the mountain. When I saw this I know I got to get a closer look so I can take a picture of this beautiful scenery.


Going up the hill (actually it's one of the easiest and smoothest hill through out the whole trip. Most of the paths that we have gone through have bushes, dirt, and broken up rocks on a steep hill which makes it much harder to walk on.)


Going down the hill. Hey, wait for me!


This is one of the picture where I'm at the top of the mountain. haha. My brother was trying to swing me off the mountain. I look soooo fat!


At a different location on top of the mountain. I aksed them to do a post for me. Photography is one of my passion in life.


They are so goofy!


Cell phone break! haha Some how we could not seperate ourself from the outside world even it's just for couple of hours.

White water rafting (07/22/06)

This was my second time going on white water rafting. It was rainning like dogs and cats that whole morning but, to my surprise it had stopped just before we were about to go onto the raft! Were we lucky or maybe the pastor prey that the rain will stop had really work! Who knows! Despite the rain had stopped I still had gotten soaking wet from head to toe by Gilbert and Tommy (they are on another raft). Everything had went pretty smoothly and we had not fallen out of the raft nor got stuck on any rocks thats in our path. I guess we were good or just lucky.


Here's a picture of us rafting. I'm the one in white T-shirt in the front of the raft. =) The couple in the back of the raft is my brother and his girlfriend. Do they look cute together or just look baldish? Hehe. The two in the middel is my brother old college friends and they are married. Oh yea, the lady that sit right across from me in the front is my brother's girlfriend's older sister.

Fourth of July's weekend

Fourth of July is one of my favorites holiday of the year mainly because it's taken place during the summer where there are more options and fun activities available. Such as bbq, volley ball, swimming, crabbing, biking, kayaking, dancing outside, hanging out on the beach, and,...etc. Plus, you could take this opportunity to take a vacation with your family or some very close friends.

I had been waiting for an excuse like Fourth of July to come around so I could unleash myself from my miserable life to loosen up have some fun, hang out, and simply to have something to look forward to. Things did not work out the way I originally had planed. I was supposed to have a bbq on a beach and go on a family vacation. We were too busy figuring out what the other person wants we ended up arguing and doing none of them. But, I did get to see my granny, my favorite’s ants and uncles. It took us couple hours to drive from our place to theirs and they have invited us to stay over. They did a great job being our host. I hope one day when they come over to New York I will be able to make them feel as comfortable as they did for me. However, there isn't much to do around their house all we did was eat and hang out.


This is my cousin's dog, Goldie. Isn’t she so cute? I want to have a dog just like her except maybe a little smaller. Oh yea, I look sweaty in this picture is because I just had finished working out in my uncle's home gym (hint look at the big gym equipment behind me). =P

Mother's day

This pass Sunday, we have celebrated mother's day at my Gramma's nursing home. It was long, I thought it would never end and I would never get home in time to study for my final. I end up staying up all night studying for final after finish gramma's thing with the relatives, grocery shopping with my family, and dinner at some Korean resturant. I always put my family's need before my own. I did that for Kevin's graduation, family function, and all the holidays. My personal time and needs always comes in second. Sometime I wish I could be a little more selfish and do what I want with out feeling guilty. Like going out with friends, not staying home for dinner, and skip out big family reunions to do something more important in my life. My parents knows how to play the guilt trip on me. It's not even funny. Maybe that's why I don't have a social life nor a boyfriend. Even when I go on my computer sometime my mom spy on me by looking from behind me and asked "what are you looking at." I need some space and independent that's why my other blogger is called findingliberty.
After we came home from dinner we ate a heart shape cake. It's the best looking fruit cake I ever seen and quite expensive for such a small cake. I guess everything comes with a cost especially, in N.Y. By the way, it looks better than it taste.


aww....isn't this a pretty cake? I didn't even want to eat it b/c it looked so nice.

Spring is here!!

I think spring had an affect on me...the thought of sun shining on me with gentle breeze makes me want to go out more and do something fun out door =) It even makes me want to do some improvement in my life like starting a diet and cleaning up around the house. hehe Most likely that will never follow throw for very long. Here are some picture that I have taken outside around my house.